New Posting, New Worldview..

Bismillahirrahmanirrahiim...


Assalamualaykum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh..

Well, well.. Almost a month in a new posting, Medical.. baru sekarang boleh nak update.. Memang agak busy sebab every weekend pon kena on-call.. mentang2 le saye baru kan, so diorang taruk saye on-call every weekend... 7 on-calls per month, for this month le..tapi takpelah, good exposure and experience for me..

So far, so good.. I haven't cry yet in this posting, like I did in O&G (recall : I cried the last day of tagging.. and guess who was the person that I called, just to listen to my sobs...??). But I do agree that being in Medical is so busy, and I hardly find my own time to take a break for lunch.. So, just kumpul all the hunger and thirst till evening, then makan skaligus (breakfast, lunch and dinner).. huhuhu.. But the working environment is so nice.. I'm a little bit lucky to be in the ward that is so welcoming.. all the staff nurses are kind and helpful.. MO and registrar are kinda cool.. and I've got this opportunity to learn a lot, since they discussing cases and academic matters quite often, and make us involve in it..

On-calls, quite okay.. 1st day, 10 patients came in , non-stop from 6pm to 4am.. but I still have time to have a little nap from 4.30am to 6.30am.. it's enough, I would say.. 2nd on-call, only 8 patients.. mostly were stable and it was on the weekend.. so, kind of relaxing.. 3rd on-call, only 1 patient.. hahahahaha! She came in at 9pm and I finished all the clerking, blood-taking and presenting to my MO at about 11pm.. then, I doozed off in the prayer room until 5.30am.. lalalala... next on-call, this coming Sunday.. hope not so bad le..

Next point, regarding procedures.. I am so glad that during my med-school time, we were forced by our lecturers to do a lot of procedures.. by the time we start our houseman, at least we know what to do, and it saves a lot of our time.. so, to all medical students out there, please do A LOT of venepunctures, branula and ABG...these are the basic things that we should master (or at least tried 10 times before start working).. or else, trouble man... hehehe.. before starting this posting, I am so worried because my branula is so so bad.. in 10 trials, 5 would fail.. argh.. but now, with a lot of practice and guidance with the correct technique, I managed to do it.. bangga seh!

Okaylah people, that's all about my job now.. just pray for me, so that I could survive in this posting successfully... May Allah give me strength and courage to overcome all the hassle and hardship.. Ameen..

Take care, people...

Answering Questions..

Got this from Nami.. hehhee.. lama dah tak buat benda ni...

1.Name one person who made you laugh last night. my sisters..
2. What were you doing at 0800? checking on my patient..
3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago? eating kerepek while watching TV..
4. What happened to you in 2006? struggling hard in the final year med-school
5. What was the last thing you said out loud? "BAIKLAH!"
6. How many beverages did you have today? so far, 3, moccha, teh ais and plain water..
7. What color is your hairbrush? maroon..
8. What was the last thing you paid for? buns and cheesecakes..
9. Where were you last night? home, spending time with my family before they went back to kelantan..
10. What color is your front door? orange...
11. Where do you keep your change? in my purse..
12. What’s the weather like today? ugh.. i dunno.. i was in the ward the whole day..
13. What’s the best ice-cream flavor? vanilla and sundae strawberry (McD)
14. What excites you? currently, someone's smile and laughter..
15. Do you want to cut your hair? ...skip...
16. Are you over the age of 25? definitely.. getting older..
17. Do you talk a lot? erm.. nope. i prefer to talk only important things..
18. Do you watch the O.C.? nope..
19. Do you know anyone named Steven? nope..
20. Do you make up your own words? sometimes..
21. Are you a jealous person? depends..
22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘A’. Asma'..
23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘K’. K*n*a*a..
24. Who’s the first person on your received call list? Sonie
25. What does the last text message you received say? "Bile ko on call? aku ikut ko ek?"
26. Do you chew on your straw? erm... never got time for that..
27. Do you have curly hair? ...skip...
28. Where’s the next place you’re going to? tomorrow? ward laa...
29. Who’s the rudest person in your life? i dun remember..
30. What was the last thing you ate? kerepek..
31. Will you get married in the future? Insya-Allah, kalo ade jodoh... tapi, entahlah...
32. What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past 2 weeks? what movie????
33. Is there anyone you like right now? yes, definitely.. :)
34. When was the last time you did the dishes? errr... just now..
36. Did you cry today? no, thank God..
37. Why did you answer and post this? because Nami tagged me..
38. Tag 5 people who would do this survey. ermm.. sape2 je lah..

Kisah Sang Siput..

When someone tells you that you can't do something...


Look around...


Consider all options...


Then GO for it!


Use all the things ALLAH gave you!


Be creative!


In the end, you will succeed and prove them wrong!


p/s: A very good lesson for all of us whenever we meet an obstacle..... be creative and think of a way ...

Sisa-sisa Jahiliyyah..

Assalamualaykum...

Saye tgh browse few website pasal cool pictures and islamic website, until I found this poster.. Kind of struck me on my head le jugak.. Dari dulu, mase zaman2 usrah time student-life dulu lagi dok terfikir, macam mane nak buang sisa-sisa jahiliyyah ni dalam diri kite..

Banyak sgt discussion dalam usrah group, talks and tazkirah yang berbincang mengenai hal ni, but all end up with 2 final conclusions.. first, kalau nak berubah, it always starts from our ownself.. bile timbul keinginan untuk buang perkara2 jahiliyyah dalam diri, jangan bertangguh dan terus buat! sikit demi sikit pon takpe, asalkan istiqamah.. second, adalah lebih mudah untuk berubah ke arah kebaikan sekiranya ade sahabat yang benar2 caring.. yang akan menegur kite, mengajak ke arah kebaikan dan sentiasa mengingatkan kite.. this is the importance of being in usrah groups.. or choosing the right spouse in building baytul-muslim, since it is one of our responsibilities towards ourself in order to ensure that our Imaan will always increasing..

As this is a tazkirah to me, myself, I and the others, let us be steadfast/istiqamah in order to be a better Muslim.. Satu prinsip yang saye pegang.. "Biar susah payah di dunia, asalkan boleh rehat di akhirat nanti.."

p/s: rindu sangat2 kat usrah-mates saye : Asma', Shade, Rena, Aziah, Che' Yah, Faziha, Aimi and Faizah... and all my naqibahs.. huhuhu... nak berusrah balik...

Wahai Hati...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Tazkirah untuk diri yang sedang leka...
Hati ini sudah lama terbiar tanpa tarbiyyah..
Kerana tuntutan kerja dan bebanan tugas..
Takut-takut makin bertambah titik hitam..
Tanpa teman yang setia memberi peringatan..
Diri memang akan terus lalai..
Ya Rabbi, berikanlah hamba-Mu kekuatan..
Kurniakanlah diriku ketabahan..
Semaikanlah semangat untuk istiqamah dalam jiwaku..

Finishing..

Assalamualaykum..

Alhamdulillah, i'll be finishing my O&G posting this week.. starting this Wednesday, i'll be on leave until 30th November.. menghabiskan balance cuti yang ade sebelum masuk posting baru.. next posting is Medicine, the busiest posting so far.. surely tak dapat nak lepak2 macam sebelum nih le.. kalo O&G nih dah busy, Medicine nih lagi busy.. takpelah, at least dapat Surgery last posting.. boleh relax sket..

Last Friday was my last on-call.. kalau sebelum nih, my on-calls were quite relax but the latest one was not.. ade 3 EM-LSCS and 1 suspected ectopic pregnancy punye operation that night.. anyway, still able to sleep for 2 hours.. baru je siap2 nak balik at 7.30am the next morning, another phone call came in.. "Hanin, there's another emergency caeser for you.. poor progress la.. sorry, last minute punye gift.." Neesa told me.. argh! well, at least keja lain dah settle except that one.. and I was late sbb the registrar dah open up the tummy.. it wasn't my fault sbb they told me late.. anyway, Dr. Norizah was kinda nice to me becoz she knew that it was a last minute decision anyway.. everything went on smoothly and I finished up my last on-call peacefully! At last!!! Dah habis O&G..

Actually, I kinda love this posting bcoz the patients are of XX type.. hehehe.. But takpelah, other posting pon okay jugak kan.. sekarang nih, tinggal nak assessment with my supervisor tomorrow and presentation GDM the next day.. then boleh cuti kat rumah.. Hope everything would be okay le.. dah jadik malas nak kerja sbb dok pikir nak cuti jek.. my sisters and I dah plan, nak pi tgk wayang and main bowling.. shopping and pi Times Square le.. awaiting Adek and Kim balik.. Cik Bib is struggling for SPM right now.. tadi pi jenguk dia, nampak ceria jek minah tu.. macam tak exam jek.. anyway, dia bagitahu cita2 baru dia, nak jadi guru pendidikan khas, especially yang mengajar student yang pekak and bisu.. Reason, kelas dia takkan bising and student takkan marah2 or mengumpat dia.. hehehe.. sure peaceful jek kelas dia, katenye.. macam2 le Cik Bib nih.. in a way, mulia jugak le cita2 dia tuh.. hope SPM dia dapat score le..

Last Friday, first time naik ambulan hantar patient ke Hospital Putrajaya.. jumpa Asma'.. happy sgt!! for 2 reasons.. !st, naik ambulans and bunyi siren tuh.. huhuhuh.. best jugak ek.. 2ndly, jumpa my sahabat.. huhuhu.. Yesterday pulak, masa pi Alamanda ngan Fatin, jumpa Dadie, my junior back in SSP.. happy sangat sbb tak sangka dapat jumpa old fren from old skool...

Hmmm.. takde idea dah.. next time le, bile idea melimpah nanti saye akan update balik.. sekarang nih, tak banyak sgt benda nak cerita pun.. So, take care all..

p/s : kepada mereka yang dapat straight A's dalam UPSR lepas, congrats ye.. tak dapat nak wish congrats in person..

What Do You Think?

" kalau ingin menabur bakti, biarlah sampai ke hujung nyawa..
kalau ingin menyemai budi, biarlah dikenang walau sudah tiada.."

p/s : anyone second for organ donation? hands up please..

Tunggu Teduh Dulu...

Assalamualaykum

Rasanya, terlalu lama saye meninggalkan kecintaan saye yang satu ini.. membaca.. Dan Jumaat lepas, buku yang telah 2 tahun saye idamkan sudahpun berjaya saye miliki.. YESSS!!! Dan tanpa menunggu, terus saja buku itu saye belek dan baca.. Sekarang, novel yang berhalaman 678 mukasurat itu telah pun separuh saye baca...

Cerita tentang kehidupan dan cinta, cabaran dan kejayaan, pilihan dan dugaan... kesemuanya akhirnya berbalik pada ketentuan yang telah Dia tetapkan.. Itu kesimpulan yang dapat saye rumuskan setakat ini tentang kisah hidup Salsabila Fahim, watak utama novel ini.. Maaf ye, ini bukan kisah cinta picisan semata.. Saye tidak lagi gemar membaca novel cinta khayalan yang terlalu asyik membuai perasaan.. Tapi novel Tunggu Teduh Dulu karya Faisal Tehrani ini mampu membuka minda dan mencuit sedikit keinsafan dalam hati.. Walau ade serba sedikit kata-kata serong tentang Faisal Tehrani, tapi jangan risau, saye tidak terikut dengan fahaman beliau.. Saye hanya gemarkan corak penulisan beliau yang 'inspiring' dan 'educating'.. Tak sia-sia membaca novel nih..

Tentang kehidupan saye, cukuplah saye katakan yang saye lebih tenang berbanding dulu.. Saye yakin, setiap kejadian yang menimpa kita tentu ade hikmah di sebaliknya.. Kadang2, terpaksa mengisi masa terluang dengan kerja2 dan mem'busy'kan diri sendiri supaya tidak terlalu terkenang perkara lalu.. Alhamdulillah, agak berkesan.. Anyway, my life is not that bad actually.. Still ade perkara2 yang mencuit hati dan menggembirakan berlaku.. Masih ade ruang untuk tersenyum dan berasa bahagia.. hati saye belum 'mati', cuma terguris sedikit..

Tanggungjawab sebagai seorang doktor juga menuntut kesabaran yang tinggi.. Kalau ikutkan hati, nak je saye marah beberapa pesakit yang terlalu degil dan tak mahu mendengar nasihat.. Tapi tersedar yang tugas saye merawat mereka dan memastikan tanggungjawab saye tertunai.. selebihnya, mereka yang empunya diri lebih berhak.. dan paling utama, DIA yang di atas sana yang akan menentukan segalanya..

Terharu saye apabila terserempak dengan pesakit saye.. Pasangan India yang sangat romantik.. Si isteri sudah selamat melahirkan anak pertama dan sememangnya saye menjaga dia sepenuh hati saye kerana memikirkan di usia yang lanjut seperti dia, baru beroleh rezeki untuk mendapat cahaya mata setelah bertahun-tahun mencuba.. It was a very precious pregnancy for the couple, and of course for me.. Si suami pula ramah bercerita dengan saye ketika menunggu kelahiran bersama2 si isteri di dewan bersalin.. Bagaimana dia menjaga isterinya yang mengandung.. tidak dibenarkan isterinya yang berkerja itu membuat sebarang kerja rumah apabila pulang dari pejabat.. semuanya dia yang uruskan.. walaupun memasak, dia yang akan lakukan manakala isteri hanya menemankan di dapur.. Pendek kata, dia juga mengaku yang dia terlalu memanjakan isterinya ketika mengandung.. Takdir Tuhan, proses kelahiran tidak berjalan lancar.. poor progress, itu yang kami panggil.. sedari awal masuk ke dewan bersalin, bukaan pintu rahim tetap juga 3cm..

Pembedahan emergency Caeserean section terpaksa dilakukan.. saye nampak ade genang air mata di wajah si suami... di saat si isteri ditolak masuk ke bilik bedah, dia menggamit saye.. " Dr Hanin, isteri saye akan selamat ke? " Aduhh... ape harus saye katakan.. setiap pembedahan ade risikonya, tapi saye tak mahu dia terus risau.. ape yang boleh saye katakan adalah " She'll be fine.. insya Allah ".. dia merenung saye, memohon kepastian tapi hanya anggukan yang boleh saye berikan..

Alhamdulillah, si isteri selamat.. anak lelaki mereka juga selamat.. Dan pagi itu, ketika saye sedang 'panas' menahan marah kerana karenah seorang rakan setugas, pasangan ini menegur saye.. si ibu dan anak sudah dibenarkan pulang.. si suami bersuara gembira dan mengucapkan terima kasih.. " Terima kasih, Doktor, kerana selamatkan isteri dan anak saye.." Rasa marah terus padam.. datang pula rase terharu dan bangga.. syukur, Ilahi.. Kau memberikanku semangat dan dorongan di saat aku hilang punca.. Saye tersenyum panjang sampai ke petang..

Hmmm... perasaan yang pelik.. di saat saye diuji dengan cinta dunia, Dia siramkan semangat untuk saye terus berbakti.. kerana Dia-lah, saye akan terus tabah.. bukan kerana yang lain...

Bak kata Teh Sofia, sahabat karib Salsabila..
" kerja Tuhan, siapa yang tahu?"

A New Episode In My Life..

Assalamualaykum..

A new episode in my life has begin...
And I hope it's the best decision for everyone..
Still adapting with the 'new' environment..
But I believe that everything would be okay later..
I know that everything would be okay..
The journey of life must go on...
No matter what happened..
And please Allah..
Let me be strong, facing all the tribulations..
For sometimes, I feel weak inside..
I know You won't leave me alone...
Like others did..

Alone Again..

" Time to be alone again..
So, I'm hibernating..
Forgive me..."

Maaf...

Assalamualaykum...

Beberapa postings yg tak sesuai, telah saye hapuskan..
Too much controversial is not good for a da'ie..
Sorry kalau ade yang terasa..
Niat saye bukan nak menyindir atau membuat sesiapa terasa, cuma nak meluahkan apa yang dalam hati saye di dalam blog saye..
Anyway, seribu kemaafan...
Ramadhan dah nak berakhir...
Saye tak nak ia berakhir dengan seribu kesalahan terletak di bahu saye..


Kepada yang berkenaan, saye minta maaf..
Betul2 minta maaf..
Saye takkan menulis apa2 lagi yang berkaitan dengan itu..


p/s: pengajaran bagi saye, tak semua orang sukakan kite.. thanks to all commentors ye..

HUKM Ho Reporting Duty... huhuhuh..

Assalamualaykum...

Alahmdulillah, saye masih ade kekuatan untuk update blog walaupon sepuluh hari yang lepas is my busiest days... frankly, saye kepenatan bekerja. mungkin dalam proses baru nak adapt ngan working environment in HUKM, thus making me a little bit shock.. huhuhu.. betul la sesetengah org cakap, sure nangis le kalo memula keja nih.. and I did... hehehe.. tapi sekali je ye, sebab dah penat sangat.. gratefully, ade yang sudi mendengar dan memujuk.. :)

HO-life is busy, regardless kat mane le kite keja.. in the first month, I would say the adaptation period is very important.. that's the moment when u have to organize urself with a lot of works.. yang bukan kerja kite pon (sebenarnye kerja MO atau registrar) akan jadik keja kite.. so be prepared.. anyway, i have confidence that everything would be okay after a month..

Kat HUKM, saye kena posting kat Obs and Gynae.. lagik le mencabar!! dengan macam2 karenah MOs and specialists, nak layan nurse yang macam2 perangai.. ade yang baik, alhamdulillah diorang faham le yang saye nih baru keja tak sampai 2 minggu.. tapi ade yang kerek, boleh cakap yang saye sepatutnye jadik competent macam org lain after a week of tagging (nih maksudnye kite ikut HO lain buat keja, to observe how they work..). tapi takpe, sebab bile dapat sambut baby and bile patient berterima kasih pada saye, terubat le sket penat tuh... tak hilang tapi sekurang2nye rase kite dihargai..

And lebih mengharukan, last Thursday pulak saye jumpa Dr. Samsul, my fav lecturer back in Kuantan, kat ward... to visit his sister-in-law, tak salah saye.. dia tegur saye sbb saye tak perasan, dok buat kerja.. then tak sempat entertain.. lepas tuh baru saye sms dia and apologize.. He sms-ed me back
" Takpe, yang penting jangan mudah give up. Jumpa u di post-grade nanti. banyak tawakal pada-Nya. kerja u mudah nanti.."
Terharu dengan pesanan nih.. hehehe.. oleh itu semangat saye pon naik le..

Herm... tak boleh panjang2 kot, banyak keja nak buat.. anyway, my convocation is on 26th August.. alhamdulillah, dh dapat pelepasan..

Doakan saye kuat, doakan saye tabah.. Terima kasih atas pengertian semua yang masih memahami diri saye..

p/s : rase2nye saye akan jadik lebih kurus.. kalo on call, sure tak sempat makan.. Mr.Sunshine, makan skali bagi pihak saye ye.. huhuhu..

Ready... Get Set... Go!

Assalamualaykum...

Today went to HUKM to survey the way to my new workplace... It took about 30mins to reach there from Putrajaya (minus the traffic jam).. and a friend of mine told me not to be late from house because that area is a potential area for traffic jam.. with a lot of educational institutions.. anyway, glad to know that the highway is quite familiar to me.. wah...

Last night, I met my lecturer back in IIUM.. Mr. Hafiz and wife.. they were in Alamanda, doing some shopping.. wahahaha! glad enough to know that he still remember me.. and he said HUKM is good place for housemanship... bersemangat sket nak keja..

Yesterday, went to a walimah in MBSA.. :-) very very happy and grateful to be around his family members and relatives yang sangat ramah, welcoming and warm... orang tuh jadik 'penyepit', kipas pengantin macam kipas sate jek... huhuhu! anyway, u look cool le.. hehehehe! insya-Allah, next year ek..

Jap lagi nak buat checklist to start working.. ape2 borang yang kena bawak and prepare the books and reading stuff that may be useful later.. huhuhu! lama sungguh cuti, 3 months... memang dah berkarat otak nih.. nasib baik still ingat the sequence utk sambut baby tuh camane.. isk... teruja nye nak kerja! anyway, my self-inking stamp pon dah siap.. mamak tukang buat rubber stamp tuh siap pesan suruh ingat muka dia supaya senang dia nak amik ubat... isk.. ingat saye nih tukang bagi ubat ke?

So, okaylah.. sekian terima kasih buat mase nih.. huhuhu..

At Last..

Assalamualaykum..

Akhirnye... dapat jugak update!! Isk.. susah betul la bile takde PC kat rumah nih... CPU ade ngan Abe lagi so terpaksa le pi CC.. herrrmmm.... Ade 3 cerita...

Cerita 1:
Bestnye pi Tioman!!! huhuhuhu... first time pi pulau, memang excited sangat2.. we stayed at Kampung Salang dan chalet pon not bad...and my favourite activity was snorkeling.. wahahaha.. macam2 bentuk ikan nih.. ade yang lonjong, yang muncung, yang macam bendera Pahang, yang macam telinga gajah.. and corals pon lawa2.. saye nampak menatang macam kerang dok nganga.. tapi takut le pulak, kalo2 dia ngap tangan saye...
Belanja pon okay...
naik feri dari Mersing-Tioman-Mersing = RM65..
chalet (aircond and boleh tido 4 org, toilet dalam) = RM75 per nite
snorkeling equipment = RM 12 per set (sehari sewa le)
makan2 = sehari boleh le RM20
laian-lain = ikut suke hati le nak belanja pape..
basically, with RM250, dah boleh enjoy tahap mentibang laut masak kicap le.. tak puas snorkeling thus i decided to go again next time.. ermm.. dengan org lain le pulak.. huhuhu... tgk matahari terbit, matahari terbenam and matahari depan mata.. :-)

Cerita 2:
Saye posting HO kat HUKM... at first macam tak redah jek sebab malas nak travel jauh2.. kan best kalo dapat Putrajaya jek.. tapi bile pikir baik2, advantage banyak le kalo kt HUKM banding dgn Putrajaya.... anyway, wish me luck ye...

Cerita 3:
A senior of mine, Allahyarham Dr. Fairus Hisyam succumbed in a motor-vehicle accident, near Gambang highway... He was an ex-IIUM doctor, saving lives in Orthopaedics Department in HTAA... and he left behind a pregnant wife (38wks POA) Dr. Maslina and a baby, almost 2 yrs old.. moral of the case : always be prepared for the call from Him.... innalillahi wainna ilaihi raji'uun..


p/s: the sweet, sour and bitter of life...

I'm Back!!

Assalamualaykum..


Huhuhu.. at last dapat jugak blogging semula, after more than a week hibernating.. :) yup Mr Sunshine.. dah bangun dah! hehehe.. thanks for waking me up..

Good news, I'm going for holiday to Pulau Tioman this weekend.. can't wait to be there.. at last, dapat jugak pi pulau.. tapi nanti nak pi lagik, dengan orang tuh.. yea yea!

After hibernate nih, takde idea plak.. warm up jek nih..

Okaylah, see u all later, bile dh ade idea balik nanti...

Time To Hibernate..

Assalamualaykum..

It's time for me to hibernate.. give me a week, and i will try to update this blog again.. or at least 5 days.. hehehe.. takut tak tahan lama2..

So, here we go......

...zzzzz.....zzzzz....zzzzz...

p/s: kawan2, my hp is still on tau.. so ape2 info, pls let me know thru sms or other means, okay.. Mr Sunshine, dgn awak saye tak hibernate ek.. ;-p ..

Oh Happy Day.. :)

click picture for larger view

Assalamualaykum...

Happy sgt hari nih, sebab dapat jumpa dengan cikgu saye dulu mase kt SSP, yang saye dah anggap macam emak sendiri.. jumpa kejap pon takpe, sebab yang penting the precious moment that we share together.. tadi pi jumpa kat tempat yang selalu kitorang lepak mase skolah dulu, The Mall.. my adik angkat pon ikut skali.. si Echah tu dari jauh dah jerit "Kak Haniiiinnn.." isk.. malu malu.. orang sekeliling pandang jek sebab suara dia dah le stok menggegar alam, tambah pulak dgn gelak yang kuat tuh... hehehe! still bubbly macam dulu.. kelakar le makcik tuh...

Citer punye citer, terkeluar le kisah mase ade sorang kawan skolah saye mase dia kawen.. husband dia tuh pilihan keluarga. Kawan saye nih memang selamba n happy-go-lucky orangnye.. nak jadik cerita, mase hari dia kawen, dia sibuk dok mengendap kat pintu menunggu rombongan pengantin lelaki sampai, dgn pakai baju pengantin and siap mekap semua dah.. nampak jek keta rombongan sampai, dia pi menjerit kat seisi rumah.. "HOIIII..... PENGANTIN LELAKI DAH SAMPAI!!" Hahahaha! habis kena marah ngan orang2 tua.. dia lupa kot, dia yang jadik pengantinnye hari tuh... kitorang gelak terbahak2 kat kedai makan tadi... ade ke patut die jerit macam tu..

Insya Allah, 1st September nih batch saye akan buat gath besar2an kat skolah lama kami kat Jalan Kolam Ayer dulu... A lot of memories there, sure bertambah banyak le cerita yang timbul... really looking forward for that..

Okaylah, itu je kot hari nih.. bile adik saye dah balik UTM, laptop nih pon diangkut skali so probably saye akan hibernating for quite some time.. ingat nak pasang modem baru le kat PC saye tuh.. berapa ek seketul modem nowadays?

Till then, taking care la ye semua...


p/s: This is such a happy day for me.. :) walaupon pagi tadi frust sebab tak dapat buat medical check up lagi, semua dah fully booked kt KK Putrajaya nih.. seems like kena buat kat private jugak..
p/s: Mr Sunshine, enjoy yourself kat Penang tu ye.. takpe sorang2 pon, because actually u are not alone.. :)

Kenapa Mahu Menjadi Doktor?

Assalamualaykum...

A good article to be shared with all of u, especially yang ade kaitan dengan dunia perubatan (doctor ke, medical students ke, bakal pasangan doctor ke..)..
http://saifulislam.com/?p=402

It's About Time..

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Assalamualaykum..

The offer letter from SPA just arrived today... at first, I was " oh my... dah kena start keja ke?".. but after opening it, no date stated yet... phew.... hehehe! In a way, rase berat jugak nak start keja after 2 months of enjoying life... kena buat medical check up pulak... isk.. macam nak masuk skolah or Univ. le pulak.. next week le..

Today also, is my bro, Hafiz's birthday.. he's 21 now. You've grown up le, bro! hehehe.. hope all the best things happen in your life, and semoga Allah permudahkan semua perkara le..

Last Monday (25th June), ade orang tuh sambut birthday jugak.. hehehe.. siyan dia, saye tak dapat nak beli hadiah pape lagi.. nanti le, 1st gaji nanti boleh tebus hadiah balik ek.. but, takde hadiah tak semestinya saye tak ingat ye... sorry, no flowery poem or wishes for you.. just a simple one which I created from my "berkarat" brain.. and heart.. and after all things that had happened, (yang tak berapa best tuh..) I think if we look at the positive side, it is not that bad.. at least we have extra time to do some savings, to adapt ourselves with both our career and also to strengthen our verses memorization.. hehehe.. 3 surah tu ingat dah ke? I myself pon tgh asah balik...

Tomorrow, my lil sis is registering in UTHM (previously known as KUITTHO) in Batu Pahat.. bila dia dah pergi, tinggal le saye and Adek with my parents kat rumah.. then next Sunday, Adek pulak dah start balik her Master prog kat UTM... erkk...! tinggal le saye solo2 kat rumah.. gosh, this is going to be very very discouraging. hehehe! takpelah, selagi orang tuh tak naik kapal, takde la sunyi sangat kot..

Well, banyak masa... banyak kerja.. tapi buat2 tak banyak.. isk..

Wal'asr.. innal insaana lafii khusr..

p/s: Shade, buku La Tahzan tuh mmg sangat berguna.. bile rase down or sedih, and baca buku tuh, rase macam bangun pagi after dah complete deliveries and case presentation mase kat O&G... thanx pal..

Sepi

Assalamualaykum...

Pernah tak rasa macam tu?
Rasa macam takde sape pon yang faham kite..
Takde tempat nak share problem..
Padahal ramai je kawan2 sekeliling...

Kadang2 pulak tuh...
Kite ingat kite sorang2...
Tapi rupe2nye ade jugak orang yg always ready..
Nak ngadu masalah ke, nak nangis kat dia ke..
Semua boleh.. just let them know..

Bertuahnya sebab masih ade orang yang sayang dan kisah kat kite...

p/s: sebenarnye kite tak pernah keseorangan, sebab Dia yang Maha Pengasih selalu ada untuk kite.. cuma kite je yang tak sedar.. teruk kan kite nih? harap belum terlambat...

Getting Feedback

Assalamualaykum..

Okay tak blogskin yang nih? kalo boleh, tolong bagi komen ek...

Maaf...

Maaf ye..
Blog saye sdg update...
Banyak yang hilang...
Silap sendiri...

Another Friend...

Another friend of mine, his happiness means the whole world to me... hehehe..

p/s : kadang2, mengetahui bahawa seseorang itu sedang gembira dan bahagia pun sudah memadai... :) glad enough... Alhamdulillah...

A Friend..

Assalamualaykum...

This friend of mine really touched my heart today.. She sent me a scarf which she bought while doing Umrah last week... I was deeply touched by her remembrance.. and of course the notes that she wrote together with the scarf..

Actually, we have known each other since my matriculation days but I only got the chance to talk to her (chat lightly) when we were in 1st year in Kuantan... Our friendship became stronger when we were allocated in the same group during the Public Health and Family Med postings.. we struggled together with the journal searching stuff and knocked the villagers' doors to do the 'adventure' survey while in Jerantut.. and at that moment, I started to know her better, and I believe she felt the same way too...

Anyway, the moral of the story today is.... a person whom we never expect to remember us, sometimes they do touch our heart in a simple way.. :)

p/s: we share the same interest once, SUDOKU.. I introduced her to the game, she enjoys the game as I do and bought the original SUDOKU collections book.. well, I photocopied them for her... hahaha.. sweet memories of playing SUDOKU in the Psychiatry intro weeks..

Mengenangmu..

Assalamualaykum...

Right now I am listening to a song, Mengenangmu by Keris Patih... yerp, it is an Indon song.. can't help it but I personally think songs by Indonesian singers are deeply touched my heart (chewah!)... nope, I am not trying to belittle Malaysia but that is my frank opinion..

So, do enjoy the lyrics, pal.. kalo nak dengar lagu dia, boleh let me know..

Takkan pernah habis air mataku
Bila ku ingat tentang dirimu

Mungkin hanya kau yang tahu

Mengapa sampai saat ini ku masih sendiri

Adakah disana kau rindu padaku

Meski kita kini ada di dunia berbeda

Bila masih mungkin waktu berputar

Kan kutunggu dirimu …

Reff:Biarlah ku simpan sampai nanti aku kan ada di sana

Tenanglah diriku dalam kedamaian

Ingatlah cintaku kau tak terlihat lagi
Namun cintamu abadi …

p/s: saye suke makan Fillet-o-Fish and ice cream McDonalds... hehehe.. but it would be much much more satisfying when eating it with the right person.. ade sentimental value.. isk..

Post-Walimah (my big bro's)

Assalamualaykum...



Alhamdulillah, my big bro, Hazim dah jadi a husband last week.. akad nikah di Ipoh, Perak on 2nd June 2007 and kenduri sebelah pihak perempuan berlangsung petang tu jugak.. then, the next day pulak walimah kat my home... memang sangat meriah! it was more of a gathering event to my extended family members and friends of our family... about 1000 guests showed up and alhamdulillah, cuaca pon terang and just nice... elok jek majlis tamat and kitorang kemas2 barang kat khemah, hujan pon turun dengan lebatnye... so thanks to all yang datang sama2 memeriahkan majlis... perhaps next year punye pon boleh datang lagi ye... heh heh heh..

Rupa-rupanye, organize majlis kawen nih memang sangat memenatkan... seminggu sebelum majlis, me and my sisters memang tido lewat and buat preparation for the big day.. but frankly, altho penat sangat2 tapi cukup puas hati and tak serik sebab all the joy could be felt on that day.. cuma, memang ade rase terkilan and sayu sebab my younger bro, Apih, could not present.. tapi dia memang selalu call and even mase akad nikah pon, dia suruh taruk phone kat tepi my bro, Hazim so that he could hear the lafaz... hehehe... and the moment was so touched, thus making my mum to decide that the next wedding ceremony won't be held unless Apih was around... well, i kinda agree with that..

So, post-walimah, me and my sisters decided to be in 'coma' for 2 days... heheheh.. siap pesan kat my parents lagi, kalo kitorang tak bangun for 2 days tu, do not get worry... hehehe.. cakap je lebih tuh.. padahal, the next day kitorang dah berduyun2 pi Alamanda main bowling with the new husband-wife.. 16 org wooo main boilng.. kah kah kah.. sampaikan petugas kat bowling alley tuh pon kerumun tengok kitorang main... well, the sweat and tiredness were all gone, anyway...

Now, I am waiting for the call for work.. probably somewhere in July dah start kerja... hope I can be a safe one... kalo nak kate a good doctor, probably I have to wait for some time so that I can gain experience more and learn as much as I can in order to achieve that... and I've heard some of people out there once said that, the only time u can learn is during the student life.. after graduate from the school, u will be so busy to learn anything.. but as for me, life itself is a learning process so no such thing as 'no time to learn'.. I pray to Allah the Al-Mighty to make me strong to face all the tribulations and hardship... and grant me the strength to be steadfast with what I believe and what I hold...

Pray for me, please...



p/s: gambar kat friendster ye... nanti saye upload lagi..

Love Chooses You..

If you find yourself in love with someone, and that someone does not love you... be gentle to yourself. there is nothing wrong with you, but love just did not choose to rest in that someone's heart...

If you find someone in love with you, and you cannot answer that love... feel honoured that love came by and called on your door... but gently refuse the feeling that you cannot return, as love did not choose to settle in your heart..

If you find yourself in love with someone and the love returned, it still can happen that love chooses to leave... do not try to reclaim it and do not assess any blame... let it go, despite the pain... there is a reason and meaning to this... you cannot choose love by yourself... LOVE CHOOSES YOU...

p/s : believe it or not, i have gone through all the three conditions above... and perhaps the 3rd one is the most painful.. kan Pakcik..?! but it's okay, because the decision has been achieved... be happy.. i know u will, because.... well, Allah the Al-Mighty know what is the best for us..

Long Silence..

Assalamualaykum...

Sorry for a very long silence... anyway, Alhamdulillah, I am now a doctor.. yes, a 'real' doctor.. :-) Pro Exam was so hectic week but we managed to survive.. thousands of gratitude (or infinity I would say) for His Mercy and blessings, in which without His guidance, I am worthless...

Thanks to Ummi and Abah, my siblings Abe, Adek, Apih, Kimah, Cik Bib and Fatin for the endless support and prayers.. To my good buddies (Asek, Asma', Shade, Hasanah, Babeh, Marina, Nisak, Umai, Lini, Wani, Miza, Maton and semua2 le...), selamat berjuang, semoga berjaya di sini dan di 'sana'..

To Mr. Sunshine and family (especially your Ibu), thanks for being so patience and supportive..

To my Pakcik, thanks for everything.. i mean it... EVERYTHING...

As a summary, thanks to all... I may not be able to go through all these hurdles without you all..

Nak Buku...

Saye nak satu buku...

Tajuk dia La Tahzan @ Jangan Bersedih...

Dah lama nak buku nih...

Kena kumpul duit nih...

Shade ke, Asma' ke, Asek ke...

Boleh ke nak request buku nih, for farewell gift??

he he he...

Break up Letter...

Assalamualaykum..

Terbaca nih kat blog sape ntah... macam kelakar pulak, dengan English yang berterabur ikut suka hati dia jek..

Tijah ingin memutuskan perhubungan dengan boyfren mat salehnya. dia tak sanggup bertemu muka, lalu dia pun mengutus surat...

hi, my motive to write this letter is to give know you something. i want to cut connection us. i have think about this very cook cook.
i know i clap one hand only. correctly, i have seen you and she together at town with my eyes myself. you always ask for apology back. i don't trust you again!! you are really crocodile land.
my friend speak you play wood three. now i know you correct correct play wood three.
so i break connection to pull my body from this love triangle. i know this result i pick is very correct, because you love she very high from me. so i break off to go far from here.
i dont want you to play with my liver. i have been crying until no more eye water thinking about you. i dont want banana to fruit two times.

safe walk,
tijah

Countdown...

Assalamualaykum...

Actually, baru balik dari short case session with Mr.Shukrimi, our Orthopaedics lecturer.. pergh... terkulat kulat le jugak.. but at least ade le idea on how to act during pro exam nanti...

So, the sequence of last weeks' events....

Monday, 2nd April '07

Theory exam for Psychiatry.. MCQ was quite okay sebab boleh le nak jawab dan tak de la rase nak develop psychiatric symptoms...

OSCE... erk, macam biase tak cukup masa nak jawab.. last2, belasah jek la..

PMP.. pergh! ini soklan exam ke... banyak lain nih! macam mentibang laut pon ade.. few times le jugak saye geleng2 kepala and mengeluh.. tertekan dah... :-(

malam tuh, tido jek sepanjang malam sebab dah tertekan waktu siang.. sampai le terbangun pukul 6am, palpitations and restlessness sebab baru realize, banyak lagi tak baca...

Tuesday, 3rd April '07

my clinical exam was at 10am so sempat le nak baca sket.. bile sampai jek masa, and patient pon dipanggil masuk untuk saye interview.. alamak!!! mamat nih le.... previously, I saw him in the ward talking nonsense and still having psychotic symptoms.. couldn't be clerked mase tuh.. tapi hari exam, dia dah stable.. hehehe.. alhamdulillah, boleh la dapat history dia..

presentation time, MLT panggil pi bilik examiner.. dapat dengan.. jeng jeng jeng.. Dr. Junid yang hensem!! hehehe... tambah semangat nak present.. sempat le sampai management dengan dia and dia kate kalo saye present macam tuh dalam Pro Exam, insya-Allah boleh pass with good marks.... arghhh.. bestnye! the whole day rase lega bile dia cakap macam tuh...

Wednesday, 4th April '07

Rehat jek sepanjang hari.. uiks.. dapat good luck card dari Mr. Sunshine.. :-).. bestnye exam kalo everytime dapat wishing card.. hehehe! thanks Encik... really appreciate that!

Thursday, 5th April '07

start discussion untuk pro exam... alhamdulillah, my study mates semuanye very co-operative and bersemangat.. in a way, saye pon jadik bersemangat jugak nak study.. hehehe... hope Allah will guide us and permudahkan urusan kite semua nanti...

something happened at night, saye tak sempat nak dating dengan Mr. Sunshine... isk.. sorry ye..

Friday, 6th April '07

Revision Internal Medicine dgn Dr. Marzuki.. weeehhh, lain pulak dia sekarang nih.. bertambah selamba and lawak menjadik.. hehehe.. thanks, Doc.. berguna sungguh session tuh..

petang, revision Ortho dengan Mr. Shuk... pergh, banyak yang terlupa.. tapi MCQ boleh le jawab jugak.. peringatan kepada diri sendiri, jangan tamak dalam MCQ!! jawab kalo pasti jek.. kalo tak pasti, leave it...

Saturday, 7th April '07

daytime, sambung discussion with my group.. macam dapat pencahayaan agung di bawah pokok Bo rasennye.. baru recall balik Ortho punye subjects... altho ngantuk and lapa, still sambung jugak becoz we have no time to waste.. petang, Mr. Sunshine nak singgah... erk!

Alamak.... dah berdebar2.. alhamdulillah, jumpa kejap jek tapi meaningful.. thanks to my best buddy, cik Senah sebab temankan.. ibu dia bagi bekal banyak betul!! boleh bukak gerai nih.. hehehe... thanks.. really really really appreciate that..

Sunday, 8th April '07

nih kat depan PC nih.. petang nih nak pi bagi makan ikan2 kat tasik.. siyan diorang, tunggu saye dah lama dah..

so, it is about 14 days to go for my final exam... hope kitorang semua boleh buat yang terbaik and pass with flying colors... tak sabar nak balik rumah dengan tenang, for good...

doakan ye, semua orang....

p/s : probably, this is my last posting before my exam.. so, wish me the best of luck...

Subject: Why I never visit rich friends!

Assalamualaykum..

A dear friend of mine hantar email ni last week.. hehehe.. tergelak besar jugak bile baca.. so I'd like to share with u all le..

Reasons why I never visit my rich friend...
Once while visiting a very rich friend, the maid approached me and

Question : "What would you like to have ...Fruit juice, Soda, Tea,Chocolate, Capuccino, Frapuccino, or Coffee?"
Answer: " Tea please"

Question : " Ceylon tea, Indian tea, Herbal tea,Bush tea, Honey bushtea, Iced tea or green tea?"
Answer : "Ceylon tea"

Question : "How would you like it ? black or white ?"
Answer: "white"

Question: "Milk, or fresh cream?"
Answer: "With milk "

Question: "Goat's milk, or cow's milk"
Answer: "With cow's milk please."

Question: " Freezeland cow or Afrikaner cow?"
Answer: " Um, I'll just take it black."

Question: " Would you like it with sweetener, sugar or honey?
"Answer: "With sugar"

Question: " Beet sugar or cane sugar?"
Answer: "Cane sugar "

Question:" White, brown or yellow sugar?"
Answer: "Forget about the tea, just give me a glass of water instead."

Question: "Mineral water, tap water or distilled water?"
Answer: "Mineral water"

Question: "Flavored or non-flavored?"
Answer: "I think I'll just die of thirst...... "


hmmm...kalo nak pelawa minum, perlu ke detail macam tuh? hehehe... anyway, alangkah bagusnye kalo medic students pon dapat amik history as detail as this maid...

One Day..

Assalamualaykum...

To someone...

One day you will ask me what I love more...

You, or My Life...

And when I say My Life..

You will walk away from me...

Without realising and knowing...

That YOU are My Life...

p/s : isk.. kenapa lak jiwang nih...

hope u know.. :-)

Towards Pro Exam

Assalamualaykum…

It’s almost 4 weeks in Psychiatry posting.. if you all do realize, previously I did mentioned that I hate psychiatry since it is hard to understand the diseases and the terms used in this subject were such a German to me.. but actually, learning Psychiatry is like learning about people as well as language.. hehehe! Frankly, I do noticed that Psychiatry has enhanced my English usage.. with all the jargons and the need to translate a patient’s words in Malay into English since 2 of our lecturers (out of 3) did not understand Malay that much.. anyway, I do enjoy Psychiatry posting as a whole, although earlier I have negative impression towards the subject…

Okay, nak citer ape lagi? Haa.. last 2 weeks, I joined a halaqah held in UPM Faculty of Medicine.. alang2 dah dekat sgt dgn rumah, I just stayed at my house, with 4 other friends.. since diorang bersungguh2 mintak nak jalan2 sekitar Putrajaya, so petang Sabtu tuh kitorang pi le melawat ke masjid and etc.. siap tangkap gambar kat jambatan yang famous tuh.. dah le pi tangkap gambar kat tgh jalan, saye pulak yang kena snap.. isk.. mahu nye lalu kereta, habis le saye kena langgar.. nasib baik tadak.. overall, puas hati le dgn halaqah tuh (meant for a revision session for all medical students from various universities) and happy jugak sebb may friends like Putrajaya..

Pro exam is about 5-6 weeks ahead.. the heat has been felt since the halaqah prog.. my preparation?? Rase macam tak prepare sgt tapi I know I must do the best, regardless of what gonna happen. Sometimes, having so many people putting their hopes on us is such a big responsibility… Kalo ikutkan, in my extended family start dari my grandparents to me, I am the first to be a doctor.. the second would be my beloved brother, Hafiz (whom is currently in India and just returned back from his holiday, pusing2 India, pi Taj Mahal.. tak aci!!). Although the burden to satisfy others are quite stressful, I am still happy since they are proud of me.. J My two grandmas (Ma and Mek) would tell their friends and my other relatives (whom I don’t even know that we are sharing the same great great great grandfathers) that they have a granddaughter who is a doctor-to-be.. then, when I go back to hometown Kelantan for Hari Raya celebration, these relatives would say “ ooo… inilah cucu yang nak jadi doctor tuh dah ye…” and the sparkling eyes and proud smiles on my grandmas’ faces were so lovely and touching, that I nearly shed tears in happiness.. hermmm… I hope I could make them happy always, before they close their eyes forever..

Looking at my stressful friends studying hard to grab as much as they could for this important exam, I felt sad.. after the exam, all of us would leave and no more playful jokes and giggling laughter in the common room.. I’m gonna miss that so much! After 7 years together, facing troubles and hardship in study and life as medic students, work hand in hand to ensure the welfare of our batch members are well kept, it is really hard for me to say Goodbye… I know I will cry on the last day.. I know I would…

And after the exam, insya-Allah, a new chapter of life begins.. working as a doctor with the patient’s hope and life in our hand, it will teach me the meaning of responsibility… the real one.. and I really hope, there would be someone who will comfort me when I need reassurance.. especially the first year of becoming a houseman doctor.. and I really hope Allah will always give me strength and His guidance so that I won’t feel alone.. Ameen…


p/s : most of the time, it is hard to say Goodbye..

After Surgery Exam

Assalamualaykum...

Well, here I am again.. writing in this blog from UTM Skudai.. actually, I am visiting my sister Dalila for the weekend, after a hectic day of exam last Wednesday.. Well, exam is supposed to be the time when u are assessed by the examiners (that are our own lecturers or KKM doctors).. u are being assessed in terms of knowledge in medical field, rapport with patient, self confidence, fluency in communicating and of course, how to manage patient as a whole.. however, this is the first time i felt as if i was bullied by my own lecturers! this is unfair... the examiners didn't even prepared themselves to take me for exam.. Mr.F told me it's okay if i couldn't complete my PE since the patient was in pain.. but Mr. Z scolded me because i didn't complete it.. hallo so-called brilliant surgeons, discuss le dulu before throw out any instructions to me.. u are not only confusing the student, but also making them 'jengkel' of u...

okay, cukup le for exam portion.. ape2 yang jadik mase result kuar, i dun really mind.. as long as i know i have done the best, the others are no big deal for me.. talking about the previous event, last 26th January was my birthday.. duh.. i am 25 year old already.. :-/ early morning, saye sempat mengucapkan pada diri saye sendiri, "Selamat Pendek Umur".. betul le kan, makin bertambah umur kite, makin dekat kite nak kembali pada Dia, maka makin pendek le umur kite.. banyak lagi perkara yang saye nak achieve before saye balik jumpa Dia... kalo orang lain mintak supaya dipanjangkan umur, saye mintak supaya dipermudahkan urusan dan dipelihara hati supaya tak termasuk dalam golongan yang Dia benci... Ameenn...

tomorrow I am going back to Putrajaya.. since Fatin dah masuk asrama (SMAP Kajang), my parents tinggal berdua jek.. hehehe! macam baru2 kawen le pulak.. and i heard from Kimah that si Fatin really enjoy her school very much.. makcik tuh nak berniaga meggi le pulak kat asrama.. orang suruh pegi belajar, bukan berniaga.. ikut Ummi betul le si Fatin tuh..

Next posting would be Psychiatry.. dealing with people whom having mental illness.. actually, psychiatric illness is not only a medical problem but also a social concern.. once seseorang itu dilabel sebagai ade masalah mental, masyarakat sekitar especially yang tahu dan kenal dia akan memandang serong... lagi susah kalo pesakit itu dipulaukan dan dibenci.. sedangkan mereka nih perlu dibantu dan diberi sokongan oleh orang lain supaya dapat pulih semula..
mungkin kite tak tahu dan tak sedar, sebenarnye kite jugak sakit.. sakit mental jugak... cuma sebab orang lain tak tahu dan kite sendiri tak mengaku..

okaylah, panjang pulak dah.. since my Professional Exam is just around the corner (end of April), i probably will slow down in this blogging thing.. doakan kami semua supaya berjaya pass ye..

p/s: Mr Sunshine, thanks for the cute and lovely gift.. :-p frankly, sayang nak guna.. maybe i'll use it when the time comes.. suke sangat!

Berhabuk Dah...

Assalamualaykum...

Adeh..lama sungguh tak update.. memang tak sempat sgt le kebelakangan nih sebab busy dengan macam2.. kadang2 kalo tak busy tapi malas le pulak..

Last Friday, i read an article written by a Senior News Editor of The Star.. he wrote an article entitled "Too Busy For Loave, Too Few To Wed".. this is regarding eligible and professional women having problems finding Mr. Right.. kelakar betul baca article tuh! saye gelak kuat gile mase kat newspaper area kat library sampaikan adik junior tuh tanye, ape yang kelakar sangat.. this guy shared his experience chatting with 2 women friends of his regarding the issue.. diorang nih panggil lelaki lembut ala-ala softlan tuh "teapots".. i was wondering initially, why teapot?? rupe2nye kalo kite tgk this type of people berdiri, sambil tangan sebelah kat pinggang, and sebelah lagi melentuk atas bahu, memang sebijik macam TEAPOT! hahaha...

and at the end of the discussion, these 2 ladies gave reason why ladies today are still single.. ade 11 reasons..

1) The nice men are ugly.
2) The handsome men are not nice.
3) The handsome and nice men are gay.
4) The handsome, nice and heterosexual men are married.
5) The men who are not so handsome, but are nice men, have no money.
6) The men who are not so handsome, but are nice men with money think we are only after their money.
7) The handsome men without money are after our money.
8) The handsome men, who are not so nice and somewhat heterosexual, don't think we are beautiful enough.
9) The men who think we are beautiful, that are heterosexual, somewhat nice and have money, are cowards.
10) The men who are somewhat handsome, somewhat nice and have some money and thank God are heterosexual, are shy and NEVER MAKE THE FIRST MOVE!!!
11) The men who never make the first move, automatically lose interest in us when we take the initiative.

Now, who would understands men?

In the end, they suggested that...to that somewhat handsome, somewhat nice and have some money and thank God are heterosexual men, please make the first move..

herm..personally, i think it's kinda true.. if a girl still being single at late age, probably this would be one of the reason.. kamon la guys, don't expect the girl to make the first move. if it's the girl who should start approaching a guy, u all akan kate that girl cheap or desperate pulak.. but, nih only applicable when u are searching for a girl to be your soulmate or wife le.. tak boleh apply if nak buat main2 ek..in fact, i object gf-bf thingy, although i've experienced one before..

so, that's about it.. take care all...

p/s : to Mr Sunshine, careful kat Manila tuh.. altho it's far away, but we still sharing the same sun.. :-) anyway, u're not in any of the above categories, becos u're in the 12th group..hehehe

Kerna Ku Sayang Kamu - Dygta

This is one of my favourite songs, dedicated to all of those whom I love very much.. especially you..

Seandainya, kau ada disini denganku
Mungkin ku tak sendiri
Bayanganmu, yang selalu menemaniku
Hiasi malam sepiku

Kuingin bersama dirimu
Ku tak akan pernah, berpaling darimu
Walau kini, kau jauh dariku
Kan slalu kunanti
Karna ku sayang kamu

Hati ini, selalu memanggil namamu
Dengarlah melatiku
Ku berjanji, hanyalah untukmu cintaku
Takkan pernah ada yg lain

Adakah rindu di hatimu
Seperti rindu yang kurasa
Sanggupkah kuterus terlena
Tanpamu disisiku, ku kan slalu menantimu

Seandainya, kau ada disini denganku
Mungkin ku tak sendiri
Bayanganmu, yang selalu menemaniku
Hiasi malam sepiku

Kuingin bersama dirimu
Ku tak akan pernah, berpaling darimu
Walau kini, kau jauh dariku
Kan slalu kunanti
Karna ku sayang kamu
Kan slalu kunanti
Karna ku sayang kamu

Aidil Adha and New Year...

Assalamualaykum...

Alhamdulillah, dah selamat kembali ke Kuantan lepas menyambut Aidil Adha kat rumah.. cuti panjang 5 days, so balik le rumah.. cuma balik awal ke Kuantan sebab banyak kerja nak kena buat..

On the day of Aidil Adha, satu family Mr. Sunshine datang rumah untuk beraya.. hehehe.. tak tahu nak masak ape, so berpakat le nak masak lontong and rendang.. main belasah jek campur bahan2 tapi alhamdulillah, orang tu kate sedap... lain kali boleh buat lagi.. tapi yang paling happy, bile nampak both families could get along well.. syukur sangat! cuma terkilan sket sebab tak dapat nak borak lama dengan ibu dia.. dengan dia pon just bercakap sepatah jek.. heheh.. takpelah, next time boleh cakap lagi..

1st January 2007, terpaksa berangkat balik ke Kuantan.. naik lrt dari sungai besi, tukar kat Masjid Jamek sampai ke Gombak.. duduk dekat dengan satu family Korea.. hahaha! yang bestnye, budak laki tuh sangat comel dan saye dapat le paham sket2 ape yang diorang cakap sebab terlalu banyak sgt tgk citer Korea.. kelakar betul budak perempuan tuh.. tak boleh dok diam, asyik merengus le, toleh kiri kanan le.. sebut "Aisshhhh.." kuat2 le.. then selamat sampai ke Kuantan dalam pukul 7.15pm...

oh ya, glad to know that one of my friend dari skolah rendah and skolah agama same2 kat Bukit Tunku, Puan Nazlee kite, dah selamat dapat baby girl.. cute sgt! congrats to her..

anyway, talking about azam tahun baru... actually, tak de la penting sangat tapi tahun nih macam kena ade azam yang baru supaya ade target and priority... so, saye ade 2 azam yang penting..
pertama : nak pass final Pro Exam end of April tahun nih... supaya boleh kerja cepat2..
kedua : nak bina masjid dah... hehehe.. takleh nak elaborate lagik le, sebab still dalam perancangan.. insya-Allah.. lagi cepat lagi bagus..

okaylah, tu je setakat nih.. doakan la semoga kedua-dua azam saye tercapai.. :)